My Prayer

As many of you may know, we had a serious issue with Miss Edith on her first day of first grade. To make a long story short, she was ushered out the wrong door, and got lost. She was found on the service road of the highway some 45 minutes later, and that very afternoon she was pulled from the local independant school district and became a home-schooler.

I have got to say right here and right now, that almost a year and a half later, I still cry when I think about it and I still have nightmares. There are some days that the thoughts of what Edith went through are all consuming, and I feel the cold hand of terror on my heart, and it's so hard to shake even though she is here, and she is safe. Apparently, I am not the only one.

We have started going to a local church in the next town after a long hiatus not from God, but from "church" as an entity. *Side note... great story there, remind me and sometime I will tell you all!* Anyway, this church is HUGE. I mean, GIANORMOUS doesn't even begin to cover it. And every Wednesday, they have kids classes. Tonight was the first night that I brought her, though she has been going for a while with friends from her kindergarten class.

While I was waiting in line to check her out, I looked over and saw her running toward me crying, then she tripped and scraped her wrist something fierce. Why on earth is she crying? Well, she was afraid that she was going to get lost and I wouldn't be there and so she ran ahead of her class, then got lost. When she saw me, that was all she wrote.

Is this fear ever going to leave us? I honestly had no idea that it was still affecting her as badly as it does me. So here I am, blogging and praying for peace of mind, a forgiving heart, and strength to deal with those moments when I can't breathe. And I'll be praying these things for Edith more than me. And I'll take any prayers for her from you too!! Heavenly Father, restore my forgiving heart and help me be a strong role model for Edith, so that she sees it is ok to be afraid, and not let her fear paralyze her. Amen.